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F O C U S

Posted on 01. Apr, 2009 by Deb in A Little More Focused, The Girl

There are some days when I am more scattered than others.

From the moment I got up this morning, my thoughts have been flitting from here to yon – my neurons reminding me of fireflies on a summer’s night.    I knew it was extreme, like a summer night in the 70′s,  when a daily report I do took me twice as long as usual as  I grasped to pull the pieces together of what should be a quick task.  an easy task.    I say the 70′s because since then, I haven’t seen many fireflies.

Greta and I are still doing our daily walks.  I have my gym membership, but while the weather is nice, I will be using it as a time to exercise the dog and I both, as well as a time to really commune with nature.  At times, I can feel the pull to be grounded to the earth and spending time in nature is always a way to do that.  When I was in DC so much, I would visit the Smithsonian Gardens behind the Castle or Arlington National Cemetery.  I have a girlfriend who needs the ocean in order to ground herself, and I understand that; if you are spiritual in any way, I  am sure you will understand as well.    The combination of exercise and nature were of great help, but the biggest help has been the addition of meditation of my routine.  We are a week and a half away from Good Friday and my Lenten goal of meditating (usually daily) is present.   It is still a struggle some days, but I can see and feel the difference.

I still have to say, however, that beyond short bursts of focused time, I am still a little scattered today.  I have some deadlines tomorrow as well as some deadlines for Friday, but today, I am going to simply do the best that I can.   I still struggle with the habit of being too hard on myself, however, I am lessening the severity of the self-flagellation.     It is a part of living constructively, by the way,  to embrace the fireflies.   I’m going to put on a pretty dress and go to have drinks with one of my girlfriends and know that my focus will eventually be found again, in all probability by tomorrow.   It is SPRING and it is BEAUTIFUL and it is a fabulous day to just BE and embrace the happiness and love in the world.

Whoever said that happiness was overrated was wrong, by the way.   Hope you are having a lovely day – with your focus or your fireflies.