Everything
Posted on 05. May, 2009 by Deb in The Girl
Some days, we have everything in our minds yet struggle to get the thoughts to flow from our minds onto the paper. It isn’t that it is a bad day, indeed it is often when I am clearest days I feel least able to write. Those who really know me, would say that it is words that flow from my mouth instead of my fingers. I have been writing in spells, often on paper; my thoughts have been too close to my heart to share but with those closest friends.
There have been more changes this year than I have ever had, and the mirth of happy accidents have given me something I never thought I would find: love. Not simply love, mind you, but a head-over-heels, how was I ever so lucky to have the love of a man who has become not only my mate but my best friend? This is one area in which I find it hard to make words, as I am so incredibly blissful and joyous. As a writer, I am also a voracious reader, so I find that it is often comforting to find the words of others that reflect how I feel. This is from a letter written by Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald (1919):
If you should die – O Darling – darling Scott – It’d be like going blind. I know, I would, too, – I’d have no purpose in life – just a pretty – decoration. Don’t you think I was made for you? I feel like you had me ordered – and I was delivered to you – to be worn – I want you to wear me, like a watch-charm or a button hole bouquet – to the world.
When life has finally given you a person that makes you feel complete it is the most rewarding gift in the world. I am ever so thankful. 2009 has wrought the most amazing changes as I begin the next chapter of my life. Happy Tuesday.